I'm having a hard day. I'm letting the stress get to me. I'm crying a little bit. I'm overwhelmed. I know that I don't have it that hard. I know there are plenty of people who have it worse. But the things in my life affect me. And the people I love. And that hurts.
A lot has been going on lately. With moving, working more hours, returning to school, health issues, missing living with Kiiya, being in my first real relationship, figuring out how to be a grown up and live in the real world. All of these things. suck. No, like a lot.
I should probably be at school. If I'm not there, I should probably be cleaning. Or paying bills. Or figuring out what my next move is. Or making dinner. Or. Or. Or. Or....something.
But I'm not.
I just need to sit. And think. And calm my mind. And remind myself that it's okay to feel overwhelmed. Helpless. And even a little but Hopeless. It's ok.
As long as you get back up again.
So I will. I'll sit for a few more minutes, or a hour, or a few hours. However long it takes me to come around and accept that things are the way they are. They are stressful. What they said was hurtful. How I feel is defeated. But i'll be ok. Everything will be ok. Really it will. And I know this. And this is what I'm sharing with you. Life sucks. Like a lot. But also it doesn't. Because even if it takes awhile, it does always work out. There will be the calm after the storm. And everything will be ok. I promise.